Merry Christmas

Hoho!
Guess it's still not too late now to wish you guys!
Merry Christmas! =)

Well, I guess I had a quite wonderful Christmas with my friends.
24th countdown night was not that awesome,
it was kind of dreadful.
We were watching some kind of performances,
then, 5.4.3.2.1..!! Merry Merry Christmas! Haha.
Then, we went out to yum cha until quite late,
around.. 2am? Haha! Well, at least we ejoy ourselves!
Muackx to my Kluang friends! =D

Then 25th was like.. expecting some activities to happen.
I woke up at around 12pm,
then was expecting some calls from friends to ask me out.
It ended up zero and I spent my evening at home. Haha!
Then I called Koi up and asked him to sort of like organize something.
Finally! Haha! Steamboat night!!!! =P
It was a small steamboat yet enjoyful!
Having fun with friends and playing some games,
Mafia, Uno Stacko, and chor dai di. Hehe!!
Until 3am only we got back home and now I'm writing this down.

This is going to be my last Christmas in Malaysia I guess,
next year, I'm going to celebrate this in USA.
I'm sort of looking forward yet fearful. Haha!
I can't picture how is it going to be over there.
What I can so confirm is, I'm gonna miss my friends here so much.

This Christmas, I wish God will hear my prayer
and grant my simple wish. Very, very simple!
As for something something.
I'm sorry, I am so gonna put that behind my head now.
I love Jason Goh and Jason Goh loves people around him. Everyone!

Merry Christmas once again,
and
I love my friends! =D

Holidays

I was having fun with my friends these days
though some of them went to Singapore,
yorr! I started to miss them, alright? XD

Complicated feeling, AGAIN.
As usual, I don't know why.
There are just flashbacks and flashbacks ... ...
~I don't know how to continue. So.. SKIP~

Okay, I'm going to Malacca soon with my high school friends,
I'm so looking forward to have great fun with them.
Too bad, I have to miss Penang trip with my Subang friends,
exactly and coincidencely these two trips, CLASH! =(
~If this is ADP, maybe we can switch our timetable. =.=~
Goodbye to Hun Yan first,
who is a soon-to-be-chef, going to further his studies in another country.
I hope that he will have a good and blessing future! =)

It was long time ago since I had a trip with my Kluang friends,
and that is probably why I'm so looking forward to the coming trip.
Some of them, especially girls won't be joining us though,
coz' they are too so-called-busy to find jobs in Singapore.
Well, God bless them to find jobs there okay? =D
~Don't know how to continue again, so.. SKIP~

Soon enough, it will be my turn to stand in the airport,
leaving Malaysia to America to further my studies.
For Christ sake, I'm so going to miss here!
Food, bla bla bla (Whatever THINGS you can think of)
And of course my friends here!
Sigh! This is my biggest dilemma I guess.
It's so hard to gain precious friendship,
surprisingly and proudly, we had it in our hand!
It's so hard to maintain this precious friendship,
miraculously and heavenly thank you, we made it!
Well, I don't want any promise or significant present.
Just keep my image clear in your brain when I'm not here!
Aiya, I'm a grown up young-adult,
yet I'm still afraid to be forgotten, okay? *Blush*
Just don't want to lose any of you guys here!

Time flies faster than I thought throughout this December holidays,
it's like.. puff puff puff.. And soon, it's coming to an end.
I want to shout out loud, SOL<< modified through LOL. XD

I HAD A WONDERFUL HOLIDAYS!

Seriously, it's so enjoying that it is enough for me to
strive hard until my next semester ends.
Promise me okay, for the next eight months,
be with me as more as you guys can,
and I'll promise here that
I will cherish every moment to be with you guys.
You guys are just way too wonderful,
and some people outside just don't know how to believe that
I'm having such a great and strong friendship.
I don't know why. =.=

Too many words to jot down,
so, I'll leave it until I have a clearer mind about what I want to write.
Good night, people!

Today or yesterday

I had a great day with my friends today.
Well, it's the best day ever since I came back to Kluang.
Congratulation to you guys,
completing STPM is like heavenly happy, isn't it?
Haha! I feel happy for you guys too of course,
coz' you guys will have more time to be with me! Wahaha!

I just got my result today,
it was er.. not really bad! Haha!
I'm so satisfied with my Macroeconomics grade!
Maybe this is a hint to me about what I should choose
for my future? Kind of confusing though.
As for Biology, Ms. Bessie gave us a hard time,
and my grade turns out to be better than I expected,
and I should feel glad about it though. Haha.

I had a very confusing mind about my future
as there are just too many issues for me to be worried about.
Should I take Business major or Psychology major?
My friends told me I'm good at Business.
And after taking Economics class,
I kind of interested in Business as well.
On the other hand, Psychology has been my passion long time ago,
it's just not easy for me to let it go after going thus far.
I'm greedy and money-minded. YES, I AM.
Business can bring me fortune, $$$$$$$$$$$$
I don't want my future life to be not-so-rich,
or middle-rich, or not bad situations,
I want my future life to be R-I-C-H
not for the sake of myself but my children and parents.

My dad and mum spent so much on my education,
and I want myself to be rich enough
and thus they can enjoy their life after that.
And, as a to-be-father or whatsoever,
I don't want my kids to worry about money issue.
I want them to have good education and good quality of life.
I hate to admit it, but yes, this is how reality has worked on me.

Today is just today, and do you care about yesterday?
What you have learned? What you have heard?
Yesterday is nothing but a memory,
and what undone has been done.
Well, yesterday can be important somehow
in your future planning.
Don't underestimate this power,
it can push you high and it can pull you to the lowest part of life.


P/S: I love my friends so much! C=

Perception

Well, I'm back in my hometown one week past.
I'm now enjoying my life as a happiness kid. Hehe!

I don't really understad how human's mind work,
but I hate to admit that it is so complicated and weird.
Perception, is the main basic of how you think and evaluate.
However, perception is different from one and another,
how you think may not be how other people think.
Since this is the case,
don't apply what you think on other people,
and don't expect people to understand how you think.
One phrase can have a lot of different meanings
according to different people in this world.

And I guess that's how misunderstanding occurs.
People tend to listen to one side of story and jump to a conclusion.
A picture will not be completed with only half a side.
When you misunderstand the meaning of one situation,
ASK. Rather than just guessing or jumping to a conclusion
based on your so-called-common sense.

Sometimes things are just out of what you have expected,
and when you only believe in one side of the stories
and choose to ignore the other side of it, you know what's next.
And trust me, the outcome of this matter will not be pleasant.
Bias! You know?

Recently I got a sad news from my friend,
and I feel extremely sad over the matters.
Let's hope it will turn out to be fine.
There's no such need to explain so much when
you know you are accused.
Truth is truth and it can never be destroyed.
Believe in yourself and that's the key of life.

寻找自己

最近啊，
都看了很多身边的朋友“寻找自己”的文章。
大家都恨不得自己可以了解自己的脑袋瓜多一点，
想清楚，真的。。有那么重要吗？

人生就是一张白纸，
任由你彩绘，选色，配搭。
重点在，你不会知道你所拥有的选择有多少，
而就这样茫然的缩短了视线，
只看见你想看见的，
听见你想听见的。
在你了解自己之前，先站在框框外来看看自己，
看看你的四周，问一问自己，
如果现在的你不是你，你还会这样做吗？
当你有停顿的瞬间，这个过程就是了解自己。
这个只是我理论上的解释，
真正的感觉和实在的实行却是另一种体会。

有人问，幸福能耐多久？
这个说法，没有源头也没有完全的解释方法，
完全属于个人对幸福的定义。
幸福可以像风一样，每天都有，但是不长久，
也能像一阵雨一样，冷空气会保留在周围，
让你甜个不久就突然消失；
又或许像石头一样，能够熬上数亿年的熬炼，
也不会有怎么大的影响。
不要询问幸福能陪你多久，
要问的是，你要让幸福陪你多久。

有人说，钱是万能。
理直气壮的等着别人去和他理论，
还要配上实际的证据。
难道人生就是如此吗？
赚钱和花钱？还是赚钱和存钱？
又或者你要赚钱和炫耀？
佛家说，金钱乃身外之物并非无其道理，
人生的生活，还有许许多多漂亮的事物，
就算你有钱有势，也未必能够拥有。
你能用钱买北极之光吗？还是用钱买下一道彩虹？
或许你能，但是可能你忘了，
大自然的原理就是“自然”并非“伪造”。

有人迷失了自己，
好像不认识自己一样。
困惑着，这样的我好吗？这样的我坏了吗？
我还是会用我老套的话回答，
对与错，是与非，真的如此重要？
事情也不过就是那个样子罢了。
犯罪了的人是犯了错，
但是当你定夺他的对错的时候，
难道真的能让受害者好过一点？
所以，事情发生了就是发生了，
接受它，看重它，学习它。

寻找自己的旅程一直都在，
甚至到你在质问自己的时候，那也是一种寻找。
放慢脚步，松懈精神，豁然大步地走，
或许你就会发现，其实你找到了，
只是，你忘记了。
不要急着寻找，真正的自己是需要时间才能验证的。
寻找的当儿，别忘了享受过程。
不要用放大镜检测周遭的事物，
但是要用放大镜去检测自己的行为。
拥有期待和希望是“人”
接受失望与痛苦是“生”。


后序:
我觉得我自己变态了！为什么我会写这些大道理我都不懂！
不过，仅供参考还有谢绝抄袭！哈哈！

Fake VS Lies

Look, those outfits are wonderful!
Indeed they are!
I just finished my journal and
just reached home from JS Mamak.

Why would I write something like this?
Of course, I was enlighten by SOMETHING.
Some randon and meaningless thing.
Who the hell in this world doesn't fake himself/herself?
Whoever says no, is a totally BS!
Sometimes you just can't be true to who you are
to self-protecting and self-denial?
The front part is correct but then.. Self Denial???
Ya, some people just self-denying and lack of confidence perhaps.

When you are a faker, how do you fake yourself?
This is too wide for me to elaborate.
Here comes a question.
Why tell or MAKE lie? Why and WHY?
I hate lies, and I never tell lies,
except white lies. Seldom also, I think.
I do fake myself, but with a simple way,
to remain silent and stay stupid.
Unlike somebody else who fake until MAKING lies
just gain attention.
Believe it or not, some people do it.
I have the fake STORY and true STORY,
anyone want me to share? Personally of course. XD

I just don't get it,
why do some people do that?
It really make me go like..
Oh My F-ing God!
This post doesn't mean to point at anyone.
Is just my piece of thought,
and ya, take it or leave it.

I really burst into laugh when I saw it,
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
You took a brilliant step! Wohoo!! ~~
We shall see when you are going to
let down your fake mask and reveal yourself.
I'm waiting. We're waiting. =)

Sometimes,
beautiful outfits are just outfits.
They are just not long enough to cover your flaws.

You got what you want now,
I think you should feel happy about it.
Congratulation and good luck.

Reminder: NOT pointing at anyone okay? C=

进步

现实来说，
每个人都设下想法，
说人一定要进步。
实行来说，
好像，所有人都喜欢保持现状。
可能有时候接受新的事物
总显得困难和挑战。

回想以前，
我好像都活在自己设定的模式里面，
就是那种。。
你会为这件事情做出分析，
看见未来，朝着未来迈进。
所有的事情好象都是自己铺出来的路，
没有什么太大的惊喜，也没有太大的出乎预料。
就因为这样，让自己变得不怎么能接受
一些会让自己出乎预料和惊喜的事物。
现在，
真得太多太多的出乎预料和惊喜，
虽然说起来，也不算大部分。
但是小小的部分就足够让我神魂颠倒。

嗯，我决定去改变自己的那个
我也不知道是缺点还是优点的点。
我尝试不去分析，不去预见未来，
不去期待，不去为自己设定模式。
一切的一切就让它这样来，
也让它这样的走。就像。。风一样。
曾经的失望和心痛，
如今已经变成很大的教诲，
也变成脑海里麻木的那一块。
我不想再问问题了，因为有很多事情，
原本就应该被保密，不被揭开。

我要说的也说完了，抱怨也抱怨完了。
接下来的造化，不再是我一个人的工作，
如果现状真的是完美的，那就让它继续下去。
我发现我累了，
总觉得都是我一厢情愿，一个人独自面对黑暗，
但后知后觉才发现，我又不经意的把自己捆绑了。
我也发现，我害怕了，
我真的很害怕。
我自问我问心无愧，但是情况看来又好像我做错了什么，
告诉我，我错了吗？还是那只是我“想太多”的心理作祟？

最近喜欢上了两句话：
就算月亮再怎么喜欢太阳，也不能与其结合，
就因为月亮害怕太阳的灼热。我和你，或许就是这样吧。
对，我喜欢一个人，
但是这句话就是用来形容我和他的状况。
就因为我自己状况也一团糟，
我自己还没有准备好。真的是严重地还没有准备好。

宁可笑着哭泣也不要哭着说后悔。
这就是我坚守的一句话，
我不要做一些会让自己会后悔的事情。
这个，就不方便多说，
免得一些琐碎小麻烦。

给我STPM的宝贝们，
加油啦！我在这里为你们祈祷咯！
很快我们既能见面，我好想念你们哦！

嗯，就这样。结束话题。
P/S:谢绝猜测！